Spending hours with a stranger
After wandering the streets
Climbing up a thousand steps
Who will I end up meet?
Across the table in your eyes
Over chocolate cake and tea
Holding silence in our hands
Are you the inner me?
Ooh…
Floating in between the time
Falling in and out of sleep
I’m erasing all the lines
This is a moment that I’ll keep
We're right where we should be
We're not outsiders anymore
Me and my inner inner me
I'm in my nature safe at shore
Ooh…
You still sit there with your cake
As I smile you see
How we get up and leave
Me and my inner inner me
Across the table in your eyes
Over chocolate cake and tea
We held the silence in our hands
And I met my inner me
Made my face a mask
So no one can see
I gave up the race
When you left me
When the point of pleasure and pain is the same
They tell you to go back to new.
Plugged my ears with mud
So I only hear
My inner ocean of blood
That drowns who comes near.
When the point of pleasure and pain is the same
They tell you to go back to new.
I went to swim in molten rubber
Made myself a second skin
Now you can’t infect me any more my lover
With your virus of love seeping in.
When the point of pleasure and pain is the same
They tell you to go back
The point of pleasure and pain is the same
They tell you to go back to new
Back to new
Back to me and new
Me and new
The stories I tell myself to justify my life
I don't know if I believe them anymore
It all made so much sense an hour ago
And now I just don't know
It took so many years for me to stand up tall
And finally choose myself
With no apologies
I know what I deserve and trying to achieve
I'm being very careful not to fall into the void
Trying to float
I need to redefine my definitions of boundaries and control
If I want to be free to be who I am
I need to build or break some walls
My eyes are open wide
But everything's a blur
I'm not sure what's ahead
If I can’t see the path my stories have told
I’ll burry them instead
I'm being very careful not to fall into the void
Trying to float
Day after day after day after day
We walk side by side the time flies away
Sometimes we're moving like a perfect machine
As if we were dancers in a beautiful dream
Time after time after time we forget
There's no quick solution, we just have to wait
'Till everything falls into its place
Being together is all about giving each other some space
Let's not forget to look into each other's eyes
Take a deep breath and enjoy the moment for a while
Year after year after year we grow old
Trying to do everything we were told
Running in circles all over the place
But life is a journey it isn't a race
Day after day after day after day
I choose to love you and I choose to stay
Stay in this journey holding your hand
Being your loved one being your friend
Let's not forget to look into each other's eyes
Take a deep breath and enjoy the moment
Let's not forget to look into each other's eyes
Take a deep breath and enjoy the moment for a while
It’s been hours since we’re in here
Long gone are the humming sounds of machines
And we walk
Is it silence that surrounds us
Or the whispering of hiding eyes behind the leaves?
And we walk
All you are in the darkness
Is your fingers' warmth in mine
We're holding on
And we walk
Are the screams that chase us
From your past or mine
But who are you?
And we walk, and we walk
Do I follow you or do you follow me
And why does all this feel so much like home?
And we walk
To the wall around our forest cage
And climb the wall with ease
And we eat the people staring at you and at me
And we eat
And they bleed
And we walk and we walk
The people staring at you and at me
And we eat
And they bleed
And we walk and we walk
The smell of water softly lifts itself into her nose
And if her father knew that she was here he would come close
To ask forgiveness for the things he did so long ago
Up in the fortress where the king still sits
So very low
And where he served him with his strong strong hands
So full of dirt
These hands of killing keeping order for the king
The vision blurred
But as his daughter slapped the son of the king
The king got mad
And told the father that his daughter had to die
Just like a cat
The loyal father put his daughter in a bag
Just like a cat
She had no mother who could help her as she’s thrown
Sinking, sinking, sinking’ sinking in the bag
Now she wonders on the riverbanks by night
To find her Dad
Whose tears are streams
To make the river rise,
And she can smell that he is sad.
There are many words to say what I am feeling
I must have used them all
But there are times when nothing works
And I am screaming
Or saying nothing at all
Folding them real small and tucking them in
My spiky words my round ones too
That’s when you should get a little worried
I'm disappearing on you
So many words, so many silences
Highs and then lows
But mostly in between
There are many miscommunications
You act like you know it all
But after more and more explanations
I want to run from it all
Folding them real small and tucking them in
My angry words, my loving ones too
That’s when you should get a little worried
I'm disappearing on you
So many lies, so many promises
So many words, so many silences
Highs and then lows, But mostly in between
Worst days are when we feel like two strangers
We’re far apart and cold
It's so hard to melt the ice we’ve built around us
Without flooding it all
All our words are folded small and tucked in
And I keep avoiding you
I must admit that I’m a little worried
But not sure that you are too
So many words, so many silences
Highs and then lows, but mostly in between…
When we went away just you and I
For a few days alone
I left behind all the noise and worries
And I just was myself
And so were you
And it was liberating, it was new
When we went away
And I knew that everything would be ok
And so it was
And we could be reminded of all that lies within
Beneath the daily stresses and ordeals
Magical days away with you
Then, we came back home
And out of all the corners our habits crawled back in
And all the magic disappeared into thin air
Just like a d r e a m
It disappeared like a dream
Diving right back into the puddle that is our life
When we went away,
After all these years you looked at me that way
It made me feel like we were 17
You swiped me off my feet
And it was liberating and so sweet
When we went away
It felt so natural but I knew we couldn't stay like this forever
Every dream comes to an end
That's how life is with all the daily stresses and ordeals
What can we do? that's how life is
(When we went away)
After all these years you looked at me that way
(When we went away)
And I knew that everything would be ok
(When we went away)
It felt so natural but I knew we couldn't stay
(When we went away)
We're diving right back into the puddle that is our lives
In this moment in time
It is almost a crime
That you are not here in my arms
In this beautiful night
I am hoping you might
Be looking at the same sky
It’s been too long, my dear
It’s been too long
It’s been too long
Sitting here on my own
Searching for the right words
But it's so hard to explain
In this moment in time
I am trying to rhyme
All of these thoughts into a song
It’s been too long, my dear
It’s been too long
It’s been too long
Concealing
Hardly revealing bottling it all down
Not saying
Hardly telling anything to anyone
It’s what I’m used to since the age of time
It is what I am used to since the age of time
Day dreaming
Disappearing loosing ground
Not saying
Hardly telling anything to anyone
It’s what I’m used to since the age of time
It is what I am used to since the age of time
Some days I try to break open the chain
It blows in my face and I’m pulled back again
It’s what I’m used to since the age of time
It is what I am used to since the age of time
There is always a hole
That cannot be filled up
In the back of my heart hidden well
There are traces of sadness all around it
Painting blue flowers that make a trail
If I could want what I have
If I could have what I want
Would it fill up the hole
Would it make me feel whole?